1. there was love there. beneath the shield of words and flesh. it was in the way you breathed in your sleep. hushed i love yous in each exhale. it rested between our lips when you kissed me good night.
2. love reveals itself in the simple gestures and in the way the sun rises and falls, just like my heart every time you speak my name. the truth lies in the slurred words that taste of stale booze on your tongue. you breathe them into me when our lips touch.
3. i feel your heart beat and i wonder if you ever whisper my name when you sleep, or if you ever look at me with a lump in your throat and clouds in your head.
4. over priced liquor and the hum of music rising up around us, drowning out the world. you whispered that i didn't have your heart, but you held mine in the palm of your hands. tears fell to my cheeks and i kissed your forehead and told you i'd always love you, even when you couldn't love yourself. from that night on, my lips were stained with the taste of goodbye. months later, we found ourselves drunk and stumbling for the words, but no words ever came. because in the end words cannot be what saves you. you have to save yourself.
5. you turned to me, our bodies limp and bare, and looked deep into me as if you were reading me from the inside out, line for line, syllable by syllable. i kissed you and suddenly the taste of goodbye disappeared and it was replaced with unspoken apologies. we kissed as if our lips had been old friends, reuniting after being away for far too long. i felt your skin and your touch, and the entire universe swallowed us whole. we were together and for a moment, everything was right again, each star perfectly aligned in the midnight skies.
6. you'll always be my safe haven, my heart, my home. even if your heart isn't mine to keep.
7. "it's been too long."
8. your words replay in my mind like an endless loop, a skipping record that never stops spinning.
9. "this is where this was going, right?"
10. i've missed you so. i missed the way our bodies entwined and there wasn't a space on your skin i hadn't pressed my lips against. the marks you've left behind never truly fade away. they're etched in my skin like the carvings in the bark of an old oak- reminding me of who i've been and all that i want to be.
11. you put your fate in the palms of my hands and soon you'll be gone.
12. always yes or no. let's flip a coin-- heads i love you, tails i never did. and so the story goes. a girl offered up her heart for the taking.
13. fate, fate, fate will surely do us in.
14. mouths dry and craving the taste of another. you and me, you and i. it seems my life is made up of loving you.
15. sun rises crept into the skies right before our eyes, and it took our breath away. i'll be loving you, ever long. i can't make you stay, but maybe you'll see everything you're leaving behind. maybe someday you'll see me.
16. drunken hearts and tongues numbed, coated with honesty. but you and i, we'll go on pretending we never knew.
17. the rain pitter pattered on the roof, singing us such sweet lullabies and the rest of the world seemed so far away. we were there in that little room, floating among the galaxies of stars, and all i could see was you. you pulled me in closer as you escaped into the land of dreams, and i lay awake soaking in the little moments that made up every inch of my heart- your breath warm and soft upon my neck and the way your fingers wrapped tighter around mine as you were lost in your dreams, but i didn't mind. i just held onto you tighter. i held onto you for those moments as you clung to the emptiness of my skin, and i swore i could get lost in you for days. i wouldn't mind losing myself in our infinite galaxy of moments and a love that keeps quiet, for if ever spoken aloud, it may get lost in our breath and all of the spaces in between.
18. you felt like coming home.
