this is my
absolutely breath-taking sister, morgan. our sister, amber's baby shower was a
couple weekends ago and although i was deemed the event photographer...of
sorts...i snuck this gal away for some one on one time. i had to nab a couple
of shots of her while i had her in my grasps, which is unfortunately a rare
occasion. you see, when you put us in a room together, all hell breaks loose.
we dance, and sing, and do things and say things no one else quite understands
and i guess that's all a part of our charm. most folks just think we're crazy,
but when i'm with her, it's okay. morgan and i live in different states and
it's far from easy. we don't talk nearly as often as i would like, but we have
the uncanny ability to not let that stop us from picking up right where we left
off when we do see each other. they say that soulmates don't have to be the
love of your life, per say, and i agree one hundred percent. my morgie is one
of my soulmates. she understands a deeper part of who i am, more than most--
and i, her.
this world often dishes us out more than we think we can handle, but i know in my heart that there is purpose behind it all. there has to be, and in my heart of hearts i believe it to be true. so, while i don't get to see this precious face more than once every few months or so, i know that someday, she'll be near and we'll grow old together, just like the years we spent growing up together.
during our mini shoot, while i was making her stand on window ledges and pose by local business, while trying to act nonchalant when cars drove by, she asked me if i ever wish it wasn't me that always stood behind the camera, instead of in front of it. if i ever feel left out of the memories. i guess i have people ask me that quite often and i never know the right way to respond, but since morg asked me, the question has been sitting with me since and i think i finally have an answer. one that i can put into words.
the thing is, i am in all of the photos that i capture. each one is a part of who i am-- a fraction of my heart. the emotions, and beauty, and memories. they are all mine. each moment i experience is a part of me straight down to my core. so while i may not be in every photo, my heart is. it's in the mountains and the way the fog rolls in. it's in my brothers and sisters growing up and how they grow an inch taller every time i see them, and how i can see them molding, and changing, and becoming such wonderful human beings. it's in the way the daisies make my heart swell and make me hum sweet melodies. it's my grandma and grandpa canning veggies from our garden. in the way babies hold such innocence that makes me feel lighter. in the way my parents smile when they're deep in conversation. you see, i fall in love with each and every one of these moments and i will carry them around with me for the rest of my life. and even when i am gone someday, all of these pieces of me and the ones i love, they will live on. i don't need to be in the photos to be a part of them, and i really don't think i would have it any other way.
this world often dishes us out more than we think we can handle, but i know in my heart that there is purpose behind it all. there has to be, and in my heart of hearts i believe it to be true. so, while i don't get to see this precious face more than once every few months or so, i know that someday, she'll be near and we'll grow old together, just like the years we spent growing up together.
during our mini shoot, while i was making her stand on window ledges and pose by local business, while trying to act nonchalant when cars drove by, she asked me if i ever wish it wasn't me that always stood behind the camera, instead of in front of it. if i ever feel left out of the memories. i guess i have people ask me that quite often and i never know the right way to respond, but since morg asked me, the question has been sitting with me since and i think i finally have an answer. one that i can put into words.
the thing is, i am in all of the photos that i capture. each one is a part of who i am-- a fraction of my heart. the emotions, and beauty, and memories. they are all mine. each moment i experience is a part of me straight down to my core. so while i may not be in every photo, my heart is. it's in the mountains and the way the fog rolls in. it's in my brothers and sisters growing up and how they grow an inch taller every time i see them, and how i can see them molding, and changing, and becoming such wonderful human beings. it's in the way the daisies make my heart swell and make me hum sweet melodies. it's my grandma and grandpa canning veggies from our garden. in the way babies hold such innocence that makes me feel lighter. in the way my parents smile when they're deep in conversation. you see, i fall in love with each and every one of these moments and i will carry them around with me for the rest of my life. and even when i am gone someday, all of these pieces of me and the ones i love, they will live on. i don't need to be in the photos to be a part of them, and i really don't think i would have it any other way.
