so, despite the photos of pizza above, the topic at hand is completely unrelated. with that said, the pizza was pretty darn tasty. if you were wondering. is your mouth watering? yeah, it should be.
to the point, kaitlyn! i know, i know. sorry, charlie.
anyways, here's the thing; i've had a moment of clarity-- a sign
if you will.
saturday, i was the lucky gal who worked from seven a.m. until
six. these hours are not all so bad, i guess. i mean, i am so very lucky and
blessed to have a job at all. with these things still in mind, i must admit,
lately my mood has been less than pleasant, especially at work. i have been
perplexed, and grumpy, and blue.
saturday, was almost my breaking point. i was angry all day for no
apparent reason. when i finally got out of work and was on my way home, i
started to have an anxiety attack which furthered my frustration. i cranked up
some loud, power, angry music and tried to let off some steam.
when i got home, i sat on the front steps and was lost in thought
when i heard something fluttering near by. seeing as i had been swarmed by a
bee while sitting in the same place previously, i looked around quickly,
anticipating having to move to prevent being stung. what i saw instead,
surprised me. a hummingbird was floating with ease four inches from my face. it
didn't dart away or even come towards me like i was invading its space-- it
just stared at me. this lasted for at least thirty seconds and i could barely
move. i was captivated and in awe. when it finally flew away, i felt something
in my gut.
this was a sign.
i wasn't so sure what it could have meant, but i knew deep down
that there was more to what had just happened. i raced inside and instantly
looked up the significance of hummingbirds. this is what i found:
"The hummingbird spirit animal symbolizes the enjoyment of
life and lightness of being. Those who have the hummingbird as a totem are
invited to enjoy the sweetness of life, lift up negativity wherever it creeps
in and express love more fully in their daily endeavors. This fascinating bird
is capable of the most amazing feats despite its small size, such as traveling
great distances or being able to fly backwards. By affinity with the
hummingbird, those who have this bird as totem may be encouraged to develop
their adaptability and resiliency while keeping a playful and optimistic
outlook.
If the hummingbird shows up in your life as a spirit animal, it
may remind you to enjoy life’s simple pleasures and take time to enjoy
yourself. The hummingbird’s wisdom carries an invitation to take part in and
draw to you life’s sweetness, like you would drink the nectar of your own
flower.
The call of the hummingbird totem will guide you to open up to
love and lightness in your emotional life. When you see your totem, you are
encouraged to open up your heart and expose yourself more to joy and love. It
might be time to show how you feel to loved ones or people who are close to you.
The hummingbird is one of the most fascinating birds because of
its ability to move its body swiftly, change direction quickly and smoothly,
seemingly gliding from one place to another. By affinity with this power
animal, you can be encouraged to use or develop a similar skill.
When the hummingbird shows up in your life, it may be an invitation
to flex you path, perhaps even bending backward or forward, in order to
accommodate life’s circumstances. You may be required to adapt to a situation
that is a bit more demanding than usual. The wisdom carried by this spirit
animal emphasizes flexibility and lightness in your approach to the unexpected.
By association with the hummingbird power animal, you may have
already developed a strong adaptability and are typically quick to respond to
any demand. You may also have a high sensibility and feel every nuances of
emotions or movement in your environment.
Brought to the extreme, this ability may lead you to emotional
instability as you shift rapidly from one feeling or mood to another without
warning. The hummingbird totem wisdom could challenge you to figure out how to
stand strong while being able to move quickly and fly high, whether it’s
through your personal or spiritual aspirations.
The spirit of the hummingbird is a powerful mean to lighten up
your mood when you feel down. This power animal is a useful ally to lift you up
and instill more joy and playfulness in your daily grind.
When facing challenges or an environment plagued by negativity,
call on the hummingbird to help you bring a positive outlook on the situation
and find your way out with optimism."
after i got done reading this, i cried. happy tears. as strange as
it may sound, i know i was sent this message for a reason.
this was my blessing.
